mommy brain

ughhhhhhh i have become painfully boring!!! how did this happen? i used to know what was happening in the world! i used to watch popular tv shows and could discuss plotlines! i once read interesting magazines, internet articles and books! i even knew what the weather would be like before looking out the window! what the f happened?? my typical "downtime" now consists of either sleeping or cleaning. if i read anything its gossip blogs or parenting articles. im rarely in the car other than errands so im incredibly far behind when it comes to music- ahh and thats radio music, not even the good stuff! my weeks come and go, and i feel like im getting dumber by the second.

this is no good!!!!!!!!

1) it is no good for anyone who is unfortunate enough to have a conversation with me, because you better be bringing it- i got nothin.

2)this is no good for my k, poor thing needs more than sesame street entertaining her. i should be able to sing and dance and teach her fun things and get just as many giggles.

3)this is no good for my brain. i dont want to be a big pile of boring mush! the more i allow myself to not do anything worthwhile, the less apt i am to change things.

that all being said- omg where the hell do i start???? what books do i read? which shows should i watch? which smartypants websites should i visit to get the latest on everything i need to know? how do i get the hubby to play cards or yatzee with me after k goes to bed? how do i keep my house clean AND have the time to enjoy a small hobby, like sewing or baking? how do women do this? i am in awe of some of my friends who stay home and have businesses for craps sake!! i mean, really? how does one have enough hours in the day?

case in point: i just gave a never-used but super awesome sewing for baby book to my friend b. who, by the way, works most of the day, has two little boys under the age of 2, has a side business, keeps her house WAY cleaner than mine's ever been, helps watch her niece and nephew, and basically is all around awesome. and i guarantee you she will make something from that book, it will be super cool and ill feel like shit because all i do but hang out with k, and never found the time to sew.